Hi.

um.

I’m alive.

I received my Math Placement Test results today and I have a little story to tell you.

The MPT is a standardized test that my future uni offers to test your basic math skills before attending uni. In order to take particular first year Math courses, you must score certain grades. For regular Math course, you are required to pass the test with a 50. If you were to proceed in any Science/Maths/Business departments, you are required to do calculus in your first year of university. You must score at least an 85 on the test to meet the requirements or if you have done advanced gr.12 math, you would only need a 75.

I did the test around 3 weeks ago, since I did advanced math last year, I assumed it was definite for me to meet the requirements. The results were posted on Wednesday, I checked my student ID number and next to it was a 41. My immediate reaction was to lose my sanity and break every physical object I see, obviously.

It turns out the university corrected the test with the wrong answer key, and my actual mark was an 89. What a relief.

I don’t think it’s the fact that I possibly had the chance of failing that frustrated me, but having a stable and standard living in the future is my only and solid motivation to sustain my existence and presence of living. I haven’t yet found the purpose of living, therefore being able to support myself financially is a goal and a temporary purpose. And in order to work towards the purpose, I need to obtain a certain level of education and training. That 41 could have prevented me from doing so.